ohoh, so rude to the system?
Why you fight rabbits if you not strong enough yet?
Every of us was new to the game at some time... all of us had to learn how it works. And we are still there.
If you don't understand anything, just ask here, but avoid to turn into a raging people!
Just read a little bit in Help-Forum and you will learn much about mechanics.
That what you have loose now is nothing that you can't get back again.