Closure. **NOW NOT SO CLOSED. FLOWING AGAIN.
Posted: Sat Jun 09, 2018 3:29 pm((T/W Violence, e-rape, mild sexual themes
It has almost been 2 years since it happened. 2 years since I was turned in to the toy of another human being. 2 years since my innocence was stripped from me, in the most gruesome way imaginable.
(I don't want to relive the full tail again, but for further information you may reference viewtopic.php?t=18440 t/w: misogyny, body-shaming, slut-shaming)
Initially, the incident left me in shock. I felt numb. Then I started to try and rationalize it away, "Maybe it was all just a joke? maybe I misunderstood zir? I read that a lot of foreigners play this game and maybe it is just a custom?" I spoke aloud. And then all I could feel was anger. "No! Ze knew what ze was doing. Ze used me to get zir own sexual gratification without me having ANY idea what was going on." and then it all sunk in. "Ze e-raped me." I felt powerless.
But then suddenly it all turned BACK IN TO ANGER. THIS ANGER FUELED ME. I wandered the landscape gathering as many nuts as I could.
(me looking around an acorn bush while a kind gentleman guides me)
I was drinking them in. (Metaphorically, of course.)Thousands of nuts passed these lips.
I reached.
It was then I started to feel regular nuts were lacking. Maybe not lacking, but not quite having the same effect they were. I needed to taste something different. I needed something BOLDER.
it was then I met zir
(ze approached me as I was again face deep in a bush looking for a nut)
Ze unveiled the most glorious
I had ever seen.
I took them in to my mouth as fast as I could.
"GODS YES" I screamed aloud. I had found what I needed. I was ready.
"thank you! Is there any way i can repay you?" I asked
"Nah, I got what I needed." he replied.
"At least tell me your name?" I cried as he turned his back to walk away
"Err...." he paused, "John" he finished. With that, he left.
Having found the ammunition I needed to take my revenge on the one who accosted me I made my way back to town.
Weeks passed. I sat on my favorite corner, tracking zir movements, waiting for my moment to strike.
Finally it came
JX out))
P.S. Don't mess with this ****.
UPDATE 6/15 viewtopic.php?f=20&t=20597&p=304601#p304601
It has almost been 2 years since it happened. 2 years since I was turned in to the toy of another human being. 2 years since my innocence was stripped from me, in the most gruesome way imaginable.
(I don't want to relive the full tail again, but for further information you may reference viewtopic.php?t=18440 t/w: misogyny, body-shaming, slut-shaming)
Initially, the incident left me in shock. I felt numb. Then I started to try and rationalize it away, "Maybe it was all just a joke? maybe I misunderstood zir? I read that a lot of foreigners play this game and maybe it is just a custom?" I spoke aloud. And then all I could feel was anger. "No! Ze knew what ze was doing. Ze used me to get zir own sexual gratification without me having ANY idea what was going on." and then it all sunk in. "Ze e-raped me." I felt powerless.
But then suddenly it all turned BACK IN TO ANGER. THIS ANGER FUELED ME. I wandered the landscape gathering as many nuts as I could.
(me looking around an acorn bush while a kind gentleman guides me)
I was drinking them in. (Metaphorically, of course.)Thousands of nuts passed these lips.
I reached.
It was then I started to feel regular nuts were lacking. Maybe not lacking, but not quite having the same effect they were. I needed to taste something different. I needed something BOLDER.
it was then I met zir
(ze approached me as I was again face deep in a bush looking for a nut)
Ze unveiled the most glorious
I had ever seen.
I took them in to my mouth as fast as I could.
"GODS YES" I screamed aloud. I had found what I needed. I was ready.
"thank you! Is there any way i can repay you?" I asked
"Nah, I got what I needed." he replied.
"At least tell me your name?" I cried as he turned his back to walk away
"Err...." he paused, "John" he finished. With that, he left.
Having found the ammunition I needed to take my revenge on the one who accosted me I made my way back to town.
Weeks passed. I sat on my favorite corner, tracking zir movements, waiting for my moment to strike.
Finally it came
JX out))
P.S. Don't mess with this ****.
UPDATE 6/15 viewtopic.php?f=20&t=20597&p=304601#p304601
